Questions of My Heart

How many times can a spirit crack before it shatters? How many times can a heart break before it becomes hard and rigid? Am I not worth the True Love from another? Do I love too intensely? My heart throbs and aches, my eyes are starting to tear... I don't want to end up like I once was. Burned... I closed off who I was, Closed off my heart. I don't want to be that person again. But how many times can my soul be pounded by the emotions of loss. It's hard not too have expectations, I am finding. How can I simply be happy intensely loving another without the return? Why can there be no return? Am I not worth it? Do I love too intensely? I am so tired, my body wants to run, my mind wants to fly, and my heart wants to engulf. I want to disappear for a while...